All through life I’ve worked hard because teachers and society promised me a fabulous future if I did.
Now I’m here, in this fabulous future (and yes, it is fabulous!) I’ve achieved what they wanted me to achieve. But what has happened to my purpose? Previously, my purpose was to get to this point. Now I’m here, what is my purpose?
I could set myself a new goal to work towards. Perhaps a dream job/ a diet goal/ a new house? I could create a pinboard of images and motivational quotes to help me get there. But when I’m there I will be in the same position I am now. Goal-less. I would then have to consider a newer goal and my problem will constantly renew.
I could devote my life to a particular passion. I could be passionate about work, religion, politics or people’s rights. I could devote my life to Freeing Tibet, becoming senior partner, converting the damned, saving the polar bear or the starving children. A whole life. A whole life, dedicated to one passion. But then how would I choose a passion? What would happen to all the things I wasn’t passionate about? What if I only have mediocre feelings for everything? What if I believe that ‘what happens, happens’ and my involvement will not change anything?
The passionate people, or the goal-driven people, are the happy ones with a purpose in life.
The indecisive among us, those of us who can’t muster enough passion for one thing or another, who see 3 sides to every story, who cannot simply choose when faced with a fork in the road….what becomes of us?
We ask the questions:
“Why am I here?”
“What am I in this world?”
“What is the point?”
For the easily persuaded, the notion that your life here is a ‘test’ or a ‘practise’ before heaven is a welcoming answer. Immediately they are given a goal – Get into heaven!! and they have a purpose.
I am not fooled. Goal-driven people may see heaven as the goal, but what happens when they get there? Once in heaven they will have achieved their goal, and once again will be goal-less. They will feel as purpose-less as they were on Earth. What is the point of heaven anyway? If having a goal or purpose equals happiness, and happiness equals heaven, then there must be a purpose to heaven. Would my need to have a goal disappear in heaven? Would I want it to??
The more difficult answer to those big questions, the one that is harder to digest is that we have no purpose. There is no point. We are merely perpetuating the human race. As individuals we are pointless. As a race…well no one knows the point of ‘humans’. So our lives have no purpose, no meaning, no point. Is there any reason to be here??
“What am I in all of this?”
Well, I am an insignificant me. I am here, regardless if there is a reason to it or not.
I could pick a goal, pick a passion, change my goal, change my passion, or I could just…live!!!
Living with no purpose, point or orientation…how hard can that be?